Everywhere I go

So, hey.  Its an entry. Maybe.

Kinda. Sorta.

Ok.  I am in the middle of the laziest summer I've had since the summers of high school, middle school, all school before graduation and being tied down by classes and more than likely 2 jobs.  So, yeah, I am enjoying sleeping till 1:00 in the afternoon and staying up playing World of Warcraft.  LULZ.  I make it a point to watch Sex and the City, all four episodes, every week nite.  I've been reading books (most recently The Rabbi's Daughter by Reva Mann) but I've been buying more than I can read.  Mainly dealing with paganisim, I swear my pagan library has doubled in the past few months.

 I have gotten back in touch with the little witchy poo (as Aaron calls me) that I am.  I have been networking and meet some relaly wonderfully lovely people  (you know who you are).  I am excited for the approching Sabbat, Lughnasadh, and the plans that I have with my new friends.  I have probably taken too much upon myself in making 2 pies, bread, and a salad for all of us to share.

I went to Medford after spending a few days in Scapposse with Aaron and his family at his graduation bbq.  I met a bunch of family of Aaron's I hadn't met before and some of his old friends from high school.  Medford was short and sweet.  Val came back with us and she hung out for almost a week.

We leave for Hawaii in a week.  I don't have an appropriate outfit for the wedding.

Last nite I couldn'y fall alseep until 8 am this morning.  I took the day off from work.

I induldge in Clinique and MAC yesterday.  Clinique had a GWP at Gottschalks so I had to.

My favorite MAC artist sold me a Starflash eyeshadow that isn't supposed to be sold until tomorrow.  Mink and Sable.  Its it so soft.  I need to get a 15 pan palette, but I like all my containers, to be honest.

Tonite I was dreaming about the elusive Club Stila palette of lip colors that was a little GWP in summer 2006 on the Stila website's relaunch.  I had lusted after it but wasn't about to spring 32.00+astronomical shipping for it on Ebay.  And the girls on Makeup Alley can make swapping for a rare a bitch.  While lusting I hapharzerdly checked the lovely www.beautycrunch.com. 

And there it was. 

In all of its cute and pink glory. http://www.beautycrunch.com/product_detail.asp?PMID=262&category_id=1&pos=1&viewall=yes

For 12.00.

Hell yes I bought it.  Along with another Stla palette that is hard to find ( http://www.beautycrunch.com/product_detail.asp?PMID=515&category_id=1&pos=1&viewall=yes ).

Sorry for the makeup talk.

Admittidly, I want an iPhone.

I haven't really journaled in a few months so I thought that I might well throw who ever reads this a bone with some meat on it.

 I think this is week 2, I am already tired of school. As per the usual. I am taking 3 classes: German 203 which is my last German class for the rest of my natural life; Imaginary Shanghai  which is an esoteric way to say the history of Shanghai; Jewish American History which is taught by a funny and awkward Jewish man. There is just too much reading that I am not doing. In German we're reading a book called Am Die Kürze Ende die Sonnenalle (On the Short end of the Sonnenalle) which is about a group of teenagers living in East Berlin in the 1980s.  In Shanghai we we have a stack of fiction books about Shanghai, a course packet, and additional reading on Black Board and in Knight library.  In Jewish American history it is pretty much the same story as Shanghai.

Last term I was quite successful.  I got a C+ in German 202 which is a miracle.  You have no idea how hard I worked for that stupid plus sign.

I got a B+ in my Japanese WW2 class.  Now I can say fancy things like 'The first Sino-Japanese war' and 'a war of attrition on the Japanese archipelago' and know what I am saying.  While others may not.  This is what a B+ does for you!

I also succesfuly comepleted my history seminar, which is like a mini thesis, for my history BA. And holy fucking shit I got a B+.

Now.  I am happy that I managed to pull this off.  However it just reinforces that I can do marginal, little to not effort work and still pass with flying colors. Either Prof. Hanes loved my bullshit or didn't see it caked into my paper.  My paper was about Iijime, which is Japanese for 'bullying', in Japanese schools.  Now I can talk about examination hell, raceism in Japan, and Japanese preschools.  Not like anyone really cares.  And it is pretty much useless.  But hey, passing means that I am one step closer to my BA.

Out side of school, good God what do I do outside of school and the interwebs?

Tomorrow is Aaron's birthday and we're dining at P.F. Chang's with his friends.  He will be 22 and for a short time we will be the same age.  I have no idea what I am going to get him though.  I might go back to Gamestop to see if they still have the Witcher because they wouldn't sell it to me because I didn't have my id on me.  Bastards.  Although I might get him a U of O hoodie, but I might save that for his grad gift. Baaaaaa I dunno what to get him.

He is graduating this June and has no idea what he is going to do.  He never wrote for the ODE because he hated it so much, which he has kinda shot himself in the foot because he has no clippings for his portfolio.    He is probably going to stay in Eugene and stay with me which I am happy about that.  We're going to Hawaii this August, his parents' treat, for his best friend's wedding.  Aaron is the best man.  We will be there for 5 days and I will swim every day and go to Pearl Harbor.  And yell 'BANZAI!'. A lot.

I am thinking, as the year winds down, about things that I think about a lot.  I have mentioned before that Eugene and U of O held this special feeling, a spark, of antsy excitement.  It still does, to an extent, feel like this to me but not as much as it did when I lived in Medford.  I still love Eugene though.  But I just wanted so much more out of it, that I haven't found yet.  I have friends, that I don't see nearly enough, mainly because I am just too damn busy or tired.  I miss hanging out with Debra, Annie, and Aaron...I do not see them nearly enough.  Especially since Aaron and Debra live a 2 minute walk down the alley from me.  I feel like a crap friend sometimes.  But I love the fact that I can go months with out seeing Kim, Eric, Val or John and when we do get together we sync back into it.

I just want that spark back from Eugene, it sounds like a relationship on the rocks doesn't it?  While Eugene is home it doesn't really seem like it.  There is just too liminal space that doesn't last long enough.  It seems like our hearts just aren't in it to make real friends or make phone calls.  We resort to Facebook or Myspace games of tag.  Which is fine, I play them to, and I am quite shy about making phone calls.  So in this search for something to do on Saturday nite I fail quite well.  I feel like going out and enjoying sunny days and warm nites with friends would give me more warmth from my beloved Eugene, but I may be wrong.  We're all searching for something here, at university.  I always thought that I would find it. I always thought that I would make fast friends that I would always be with.  But instead  I have found myself shrinking into my shyness that was never really there until I moved here.

There is just something about this  time of year causes me to reminisce and ponder.  There is just something about the freedom that spring brings that conjures up these thoughts.

I keep having dreams about a certain person (here is one from 2006: http://petal-abstract.livejournal.com/43008.html?mode=reply) and I am unsure what to do.  We were never friends, and probably were quite close to despising  each other.  But  I have been intrigued with the idea to get into contact with them.  And just bury the hatchet.  Maybe more if they will have it, but I am unsure.  I always thought that this person and I would've been such good friends if the spring of 2006 would have happened much, much differently.  Maybe something might happen if I do something about it.

Call me.

I have 20ish minutes left of class, that I am obviously not paying attention to, to write this entry.

After my last final at 8:30 in the damn morning for Enlightenment Cultural History I took off for Medford on the Greyhound for about 5 days. For those 5 days (Wednesday till Monday) I did a whole lot of nothing.  I got to see Val and John, which  whom I was very happy to see.  John and I did or normal routine of Wal-Mart and chatting.  I am very happy that he has finally found a kindred female spirit that is with in a 20 mile radius from him.  I worked at my Dad's grill for about an hour and a half.  Mom, Dad and I went garage selling on Saturday, I bought random stuff for my new flat.  Mom gave me a pasta dish set and a crock pot.  Also on Saturday my Dad's cousin, Frank, that he grew up with came all the way up to Oregon (on his way up to Montana), with his wife, Abby, from Tuscon, Arizona.  Abby and Frank are both teachers and so I got lots of usefull advice on what I should do.  On Sunday we went to Ashalnd (Val came with us) and Val and I hung with the fam for awhile, but broke off after awhile.  Val and I went to Lithia Park and she took pretty pictures of me.  I'll post some here...maybe.

On Monday Frank and Abby drve me up to Eugene and we talked a lot of teaching and what Ishould to prepare for my future and appling  with Teach for America.  When we got to Eugene we got lunch at Sakura and I gave them a tour of campus.  After they left for the coast I had an hour or so before I had to leave for work, and thus began my week.

I worked.  Everyday, Monday till Friday 11-3.  Now, because I take the bus its really 10-4.  Hot diggity damn.  I've been reading Stardust by Neil Gaiman and I am abotu half way through it.  I worked.  A lot.  Plus I have to go to Doug and Emilie's to water their plants and take care of Sandy the rat.  And I walk there and its about a good 25 to 30 minute walk, both ways.  Watering and Sandy time takes about 45 minutes.  Last week I wasn't getting home till 6ish.  We don't have internet right now so I would take a shower and go to the library to check up on stuff.  On Midsummer's Eve I fell asleep around 5:55 and woke up at 10.  I called other Aaron and we got some Muchas and I went back home and slept till 8 am.  I also saw 'Waitress' with other Aaron and its really cute and good.  Go see it.

Kevin, who is now moving to Australia, came to visit me on...Tuesday. We went to Muchas and Sweet Life.  We also went to Alton Baker where he bag piped for a little while and we chased gooses.

My Aaron was out of town all week.  I was all sorts of lonely.  Laila and Amjad moved out, and I have their old room. Natalie and Adam were gone all week.  Now they're back and Natalie moved a bunch of my stuff form my old room to my new one...In a slap dash, throw it all over the place fashion.  SO when I got home late last nite I had to deal with that and unpacking.

I spent the weekend in Portland.

(Its the next day)

I went with other Aaron, James, Jody and Jody to go see 'Can't Stop the Serenity', a fundraiser for Equality Now.  They showed 'Serenity' at the Hollywood Theatre and donated the procedes to Equality Now, Joss Whedon's favorite organization.  My Aaron picked me up and we hugged and kissed and it was wonderful to see him after a  week and a half.  We really didn't do much.  We went to bed late on Friday nite, after walking through is high school years via a memory box.  He got up at 7 am to take his car with his Mom to drop off his car so he could get new brakes.  He came back and made me the best breakfast of pancakes, eggs, and ham.  We later got his car and played at his old elementry school's playground for awhile.  He let me make a charecter on his WOW account.,  I am a Blood Elf preistess named Jacosta.  His parents took us out to dinner to a McMeninmans tucked away in the woods.  Aaron started to feel icky and he was dead tired.

Plans to hang out with Kevin and Eric fell through.

So.  I went to bed instead.

We left on Sunday, I got to to go tot he Body Shop.  We got back to Eugene, got Taco Bell, and I played WOW.

I sarted summer classes yesterday.  Geology 101 which I might not need to take.  Its at 8 am so I am really miserable.  8amClass and I have to go to work right afterwards then Doug and Emilie's house stuff...i don't get home till 6 pm.  It sucks.  I want it to stop.  We might be closing as soon as next week too.  We're expanding. If we do, and I don't ha to take this class I might be able to go to Medford again, but I am not sure.

Good God, I am tired.

I am back in Eugene where it feels more like home.

I am about to go to bed and revel in my new surroundings.